Someone said “most people live under calm despair”, I can't agree with him more.
The bad thing is we don't know we are living under despair, because we believe what we are living is the true life, we believe we should live such life so we have no sense to change our lives, change them to be better. We are dead in our mind.
We were born, we are living, we will die, this is the route of our lives. Sometimes we also have dreams, but we are seeking excuses to quit our dreams, when we have dreams, we feel excited, after we quit them, we feel despair. Such despair is too small to be felt.
Why not change my life to be better? Why not jump out of calm despair? I ask myself.